I haven't updated in forever, so here goes.

My grandpa died recently, and although I never met him before, it's turned out to be a huge thing for me. I constantly find myself trying to help out my family, and be there for them while they grieve, but I don't feel as though I'm helping them at all. I've had to call in for work at Food Basics for three days, so that I could work for my uncle so he could have a few days off, and it seems almost as though he doesn't even appreciate it. Instead all I get back from him are smart assed remarks that are completely unneccesary. And my grandma has been completely miserable towards me (even before his death, and even though she has been divorced from him for about 30 years), and she's even starting to be rude to my mom. It's just so frustrating when you get in shit for doing nothing at all. I don't even feel like talking to her/around her anymore. Ugh.
Also, today my mom asked me if I would ever consider moving to Austrailia with her. She's been offered a job there for a few years now, and although this isn't the first time she has been seriously considering it, I sort of think that she's actually going to take it this time. However, it would be under the condition that I moved with her.. and so I think I will. Although it's going to be so hard for me to leave Canada, it would be such a great oppourtunity for her, and I think I need to start thinking about what she wants some more. I mean, after all, she would do just about anything for me (regardless of how crazy she gets at times) and I think it's about time I gave something back. So I told her that I would, under the condition that I got to come back to Canada at leeeast twice a year (which she was fine with). So then she told me that she would have a final answer at the end of summer, on whether or not we're going to do it. I'm a little scared for the end result, but at the same time, I'm a little excited for a fresh start.
Lastly, I got a tattoo the other night, and although I really love it, I sort of feel as though I want to do something different to it. Mainly just make the lining thicker, and perhaps make the pink a bit brighter, but I'm not completely sure yet. I guess I should just give it time to heal before I make any final decisions on what I'm going to do with it. I just get so self-concious about things like these, and I need to learn to relax!
Ugh, never happening.